Nothing seems to bring my sprits high again, nth.. Feeling very low, down n damn rotten!! Sometimes i just wonder what am i doing in dis world.. i dunno n i guess i will nv know.. Seems like i'm just taking each day as it comes in everything... i really mean everything... I'm losing hope, losing faith.. n i know i'll lose everything in time to come...

Yest was was bad, today not any better too.. Face was really black in office yest, cos got xtras in shift again.. DAmn stupid! dunno act know, ask liao still 12 act expert.. simply buay tahan.. everything also 12kpo, not his problem also muz talk.. simply idiotic!!! MAny things happen too.. one issue nv end, e other issue arises.. god.. what's e heck is happening?? Manpower simply cannot make it.. 4pers can stil manage to finish work by 2.30pm, simply incredible... haiz... Went Northpt BK with colleagues, had some finger food.. release our unhappiness n off we go.. Din went hm, cos mum at grandma place, so i went over too. At least feel abit happier seeing my grandma n cousins.. play with them for a while n we took a lift back home from my uncle in e evening...

Search net for info on courses which i could take n playing neopet to kill time.. Realise tat whenever i'm at home, i spend most of my time in my room for e past 2 week.. missed my tv shows.. but just can't bring myself to be in e same room with someone... haiz.. Nvm.. anyway, while surfing n playing games, was waiting for someone to call or msg.. But i was being disappointed once again... MAybe promises are really meant to be broken.. therefore i think no promises should be made rite from e start... Save e disappointment n also e fake happiness which they often create... Tried to slp.. but no mattter how hard i tried.. i juz can't slp n b4 i noe, i woke up after receiving an sms..

Still resting on my bed.. not knowing what to do or reply.. simply starring in e space.. did my washing up, n when i'm back, i got a missed call.. maybe it's all fated. i dunno.. I hope i can find e answer to all my uncertainty, doubts n whatever are bothering me.. but i doubt i can.. I guess i'm sick.. sick in my heart n mind..

Anyway, went to work as per normal.. today is busy.. v.v.busy.. Somemore, there's a 5km run after work.. realli demoralise us.. haiz no choice.. who ask me hand itchy go sign on?? haiz.. anyway, i work til i black out.. simply dunno what i'm typing n when i realise.. haha.. it was too late cos ryan saw it n he laf at my stupidness.. Guess i'm really too stress up le.. Ryan is a happy man.. cos he'll be flying to Phuket in another 2days time.. 6days 5night getaway.. really envious of him.. I wish i could go to somewhere faraway too... simply get away from work, from everyone.. I want to enjoy life.. but i dunno how..

Fell asleep in bunk b4 e run begin.. woke up feeling sick cos got headache. Anyway b4 e run, i knew i'll be e last.. but still i feel stress.. Not gifted in long distance run.. 12.5 rds on track.. god.. 1 down, 2 down.. by e 4th rd, i feel like giving up already.. cos long time nv run... b4 i know it.. i was at my 8 rds where most of e guys left with 1 or 2 rds.. Luckily my 2ic came n encourage me, else i would nv able able to make it.. But i feel faint after e run.. anyway still managed to get myself home..

Today shld be a happy day.. cos it's e end of someone course.. but i'm not.. i'm not happy at all.. guess wat.. it's Yida's song again.. guess it really discribe my feeling now.. think it's fated.. 10 songs on my playlist.. but when i'm typing this paragraph, it's Yida's song..

Seriously, i dunno what e future holds.. i guess nobody knows.. I'm afraid of getting hurt n in return hurting others.. I just pray n hope that i can get out of this damn rotten feeling of my soon...

Just came back from camp.. had a quick bath n here i'm.. Gosh... It was an a hectic day.. Offday kena burnt... so sad... Went to class early in e morn then change to CV and went out... Else gotta saty in camp from 10plus til 2pm, i'll be bored to death!!! Lucky xiaobai is working, so we got his car n Vr...vroom... Off we go.. Lao da, Wayne n myself got class3 license.. but ultimately, Lao da drove us ard cos he's e most experience driver ard.. KEke... we bashed into NYP or i shld say we sneak into NYP n meet Fang for lunch... Keke.. Had sandwich n fries.. Looking at e students there made me feels that i'm very old.. HAd lots of fun chit chatting n looking at people... kekeke... Then went to buy NYP lecture pad for personal use.. keke.. trying to act as if i'm one of the students there... kekeke... but anyway, we still can merge into them without getting noticed lah.. kekeek... so we dun look that old too... kekekeke...

After that, drove fang back home then we proceed back to camp for e happy hour thingy... gosh.. off day kena burnt due to this.. so sian.. HAd water games like aqua jogging, water captain's ball etc.. haha... all were to wore swimming costume n get into e pool but i was excused.. kekeke... heng sia.. Spend e whole day eating mangosteens with Wayne n gossiping..

Hmmm... Think people do change.. cos someone did shocked me today.. Din expect someone to behave n presented themselve in watever manner they are today.. but i guess this's part n parcel of life ba... Hmm... back to the happy hour thingy.. think besides e organising committee, not many were enthusiatic abt it ba... haha... honest to say, i'm one of them!!! kekeke... but nevertheless, think they do put in effort to it lah... hahaha... Hmm... finally after hours of water games.. dinner was serve.. after which.. keke... myself together with some other guys, think better dun mentioned names here... decide to MIA... kekeke.. n we did it!! so off we go... kekeke...

Hmmm.. Nth much today... n it's pretty much e same as yest.. "babyit" my youngest sis yest n by doing that, i also managed to watch 10vcds of "Yuan wei de xia tian" not bad rite?? kekeke... Haiz.. tml is e beginning of a new cycle liao... keke.. i now thinking of off day le... cos really tiring sia.. hahaha...

Just finish bathing n here i'm trying hard to recall yest n today events in case i suffered from memory lost!! kekeke... Yest woke up at 6am plus plus to read an email.. then had a short chat on msn with my baobei n then went to meet up with Ryan.. cos we're going to villa francis.. Hmmm, my first time there also dunno what to expect.. Anyway, try calling Wayne to make sure he's awake.. but called, called n caleed, no reply.. i was thinking "shit! muz be slping" but tks god, he din.. in fact he was e earliest!! keke.. Wah.. He sure is a lucky guy!! cos he managed to retrive e hp he lost!! Wah.. I reali can't believe that there are still such good souls ard.. fancy returning a found hp to the police post... i'm reali impressed by the taxi driver's action man!!! K.. back to e VIlla francis thingy, we then took a cab there together with Mama saigek.. gosh.. it was raining, nice weather for slping...

We helped e aged down to e dinning area n had games with them.. Initially i was rather lost as i was not sure of what was expected from me or what i gotta do.. Later during e Bingo games, i was e one announcing e numbers!! haha.. we cheated but it was for a gd cause.. we were hoping that everyone of them could wish something.. so i had to keep looking out for numbers from e audiences.. kekeke... nevertheless, an interesting n unforgettable experience.. But i was rather unlucky.. cos something unexpectedly happen, lucky managed to get my senior to drive me back to camp else... i dunno what would happen...

My whole shift was half dead when we started work.. 4 of us went to villa francis in e morn while e other 2 had guard duty e day before.. therefore we bought tibbits n coffee to perk us up.. lucky today not busy too.. so still ok.. but e Zzzz monster kept pestering us sia... Time passes so slowly.. can't tahan.. Finally it's time for dinner.. Had roast duck drumstick for dinner.. but think it's too oily n heard some gross conv, i vomited what i've eaten.. Worst still, my jacket got cigarette smell n it makes me sick.. Luckily my baobei bought sour plum for me..

Finally it's time to go... Vroom.. got a lift to khatib mrt.. Then went to meet up with my bb, lu, min n joe to go to YWCA to celebrate clariss's bday.. Keke.. Though i'm still not very used n accustomed to e new environment, but i must said that e bond btw them is great.. Feels v.touched n envious whenever i see them together... A v.v closed bonded grp of friends they are... Keke.. lu n min physco me put lipstick.. haha.. but cannot lah. cos i'll pout n will feel wierd lah.. Tried to keep myself awake but failed.. cos kept dozing off.. keke.. me cannot make it sia so din went to ktv with e rest.. really worried that i'll spoil everyone's mood, hope i din...

Slept all e way to 12 noon, still feeling a bit sick.. but stil ok.. Baobei cook maggi mee for me again.. but abit too oily liao.. so wanted to puke again after eating, but i din.. watch some animations then went to catch "ELLA ENCHANTED"... Ryan laugh at me when i told him i will be watching e show e other day... hmmp.. i think it'll be a great lost if he din catch this show lor.. cos it's really nice.. both touching n humourous... after that went back to baobei's place for dinner then it was time to say bye bye liao... think rather used to it le... n then here i'm lor.. back home typing this... Going off lor.. tml off but hv to attend class.. sianz.. n hv to look after Emily cos Mum going JB with grandma n uncle.. Haiz.. Hope tml will not be a boring day...

Listening to a song by Huang Yida but had no idea what e title of the song is... Only know tat it's e third song of his album... Find e lyrics of the song rather meaningful... think this is e direct english translation of e song... "Meet someone, fell in love, hate throughly, there's no turning back in journey of love... My love, let me forget u n those things, i finally seen it through..." It'rather sad but find it very meaningful n nice... if u hv e chance do check this song out...

Feeling rather wierd this few days. Think there's sth wrong with me liao.. Anyway, my day started e same as yest, no morning call... Had spot check in camp again. but as an obedient soldier, of course i made it thru lor. Met my batchmate from other coy, made fun of my little ponytail again, said i look like jap samurai!!! haiz... Felt hurt but gotta laugh it off... what can i do besides laughing it off?? nth... Hmmm... wanted to trim my hair back to those stylo sylo style, but ah boy n Wayne told me it's not worth it, cos i've already undergo so much trouble to keep it till now... Think think den realise wat they said are rite... so gotta bear with it, juz hope tat my hair will grow longer soon!! Haha.. Wayne's waiting for e day when he can see me with a nice ponytail.. hope i won't disappoint him...

Hmmm... When everyone arrive, we started work. Chatted when it's not so busy n i took e opportunity to eat e Ai Xin egg sandwich which my mum made for me.. Suddenly, Wayne told me that he left his hp in e cab!! tht he was kidding cos he only change his hp less than a week ago... but e truth is... he lost it!!! poor him... Hmmm... if it were me, i'll be very very sad...

Today work was rather smooth, cos all of us were very hardworking... I also dunno why, today so energetic at work.. normally i don't.. hahaha... think today my baobei ex ending, then weekend coming which means can meet him soon gave me energy ba.. kekeke... maybe... i dunno... Went lunch with Wayne, today lunch was porridge with a few dishes... i felt it was ok only, but Wayne tht it was great... god.. think we really hv different taste when it comes to makan... kekeke... Anyway, was hoping to rx my bb msg during lunch but was disappointed... hmmm, guess his ex hvn end ba, but nevertheless, went back to work n then when it's time to knock off... vroom... off i go... kekekeke....

Felt tired n restless, so after bathing decided to hv a nap.. haha, den rx my baobei sms... very happy. but think he's very tired so we din sms much... told him to pack his stuff n sms me again when he's free.. till now i still hv not rx his sms... hmmm... think i just hv to con't waiting ba. Haha.. made fun of Ryan today via net sms.. tat idiot.. k k dunno who i'm, but can actually reply to my hp!!! keke.. one interesting fellow i must say.. but too bad, happy times r ending le due to shift reshufflement... sad.. but bobian, gotta accept it..

Had foot reflexology using OTO product which my sis n i bought for my mum.. it was great.. had a massage on my back too, cos feel stiff sia.. kekeke... then had yogurt, follow by dinner.. watch some tv n here i'm listening to mp3, think of my baobei n typing this...

Meet Eugene on icq.. Had plan to meet up for meal since a mth back?!? but til now, still hv not meet, due to different working timing n commitment. Sad rite? used to study for exam n chit chat together almost everyday then.. but now.. guess tat's life ba... Missed my sec school teachers too. had not time to ask them out for a meal too.. how i wished i could be freed from work n enjoy for awhile!!! haiz... Think of next week sucks too.. cos ah boy n Ryan going OL n off day burnt n blah blah blah.... SIANzzzzzzzz.... Shen ar jiu jiu wo ar.....

Hmmm... Half of e day is already gone as i'm typing these... Wah... I'm feeling bored...
Hmmm... started e day as abit unusual.. Cos normailly in e morning, either i will give wakup call or i will receive wakup call, but today none of that happen, my hp alarm woke me up... Do some washing up, drank milo n made my way out of e house. Haha.. brought along Mum's made sandwiches too.. Yum yum..

Tht today will be a busy day at work... Especially on e assignment which i tht i would do.. But.. hahaha... Mama n Lao da save me!! But poor Lao da gotta suffer for me.. I really dunno how to tks u, haha.. really wish to hv an elder bro like u... Hmmm... Manpower getting lesser n lesser, think we going to close shop soon... hahaha... Wah.. buay tahan, gt xtras in e shift 2day. I also dunno y i can't tahan e xtras... maybe no fate ba... hahaha... Colleagues jokes tat they can't get into my lists of "unwelcome guest", cos no matter how hard these people tries or even if they din do anything... I also cannot tahan them one... btw dun worry Wayne, u won't be in e list, so no scare no scare... kekeke...

Hmmm... Today cookhse serve western food. E fried chicken was great.. Ah boy n i agreed except Wayne. Ha.. He had a great expectation on food sia.. Anyway, If i were properly dressed yesterday n we went to Hyatt for chessecake, I would hv bumped into Wayne... Ha.. on 2nd thts.. I think it's better not to bumped into him! hahahaha...

Work end rather early today.. Got a lift from ah boy vroom vroom (skipper)... saw 5 MP bike on our way back... Tht they going to catch people, but can't possible come out catch people with bike one mah... so i think they showing off only lor... kekeke... As usual, took a cab hm from ah boy's place.. Haha.. save abt $2.50 compare to taking cab hm from cab.. hahaha... 1 day save $2.50, 10 days $25, 100 days $250... blah blah blah...

Back hm equal to e start of my boring day... stay inside room... on e com, listen to mp3, wanted to blog but no mood so go offline n went to cook maggi mee eat... kekeke... My baobei taught me a way to cook maggi mee n it was simply delicious... Hahaha.. Think he was e first guy to cook mee for me too... Haiz... I sort of miss him now... sob sob...

Hmmm... went down to NTUC walk walk see see... spent $7.45 on yogurt n snacks... Haha.. think i muzt be real boring, cos i seldom buy snack ones.. hahaha.. Tat day i kena chop carrot head when i bought wasabi green peas without looking at e price.. today i clever liao.. open my eyes big big.. hahaha.. so still ok lor... Then back home, on e com again.. popping peasinto my mouth as i type...

Haha.. think mum will be mad during dinner time... kekeke.. cos i'll be eating e dishes with rice!!! hahahaha... Hmmm that's abt all for now.. Will add on again in my next posting... Tkgdcare!! tata....

Hahaha... Finally i'm getting my hands on this thingy call Blog liao... Had been wanting to do one.. but dun hv any idea how to start... Kekeke.. Lucky me.. Lu came to my rescue telling me how easy it was... Hmmm... well so here i'm... Hope i'll get it rite... Hmmm... So how shld i begin??

Early in e morn at 0508, Call my baobei to wake him up... he'll be on Ex Hawk, e finale of his Platoon Sgt course... Hmmm... Then go back oor oor 4 awhile n wake up to get ready for class.. Just as i was abt to get up... Got an sms from my baobei n it was reali sweet.. But i'm gonna miss him, his sms n our chat for e next few days...

Haha... went for class... kept dozing off... Thinking of my Cheesecake... yum yum...
Went home.. Fell asleep while waiting for lu to confirm timing... Haha.. Just when i was abt to msg her, she sms me... So we met up in orchard abt 45mins later?? hehe... Joe was there too...

Haha... because i was in bermudas, tees n slippers... we cannot go n savour e cheesecake from Hyatt.. So... we went to Hilton instead.. Haha.. Tried 3 cheesecake today... Blueberry, Oreo and Walnut ones... Yum Yum... it was great... Kekeke... I was really impressed by lu when we place order for tea... Wah... I only know got Ju Hua Tea, OoLong Tea etc etc... But today... i realise got so many many different type of tea...
hahaha... Me really suan ku sia!!! hahaha... nevertheless... it was a great great experience... Muz go with my baobei one of these days....

Keke... We had a little chat over our teas n cheesecake... Wah... Lu got to see my IC... wah.. look so ugly rite?? keke.. think my baobei going to kill me liao... kekeke.. cos i nv let him see mah... hahaha... then we went to shop ard orchard... Keke.. din buy anything... cos got nth in mind to buy.... kekekke...

I then bid Lu n Joe gdbye n took train back to yishun... Had dinner n a little chat with my grp of frenz... Then went popular help Wayne to buy his Book-keeping journal...

Went home... watch abit of tv n go bath bath... n then here i'm... online creating my blog.... Hmmm... think that's all for now... cos me tired tired liao... Tml working am shift... think gotta catch some slp liao... Pls tkgdcare of urself to all my friends out there... Miss n Love u all...